Yesterday, I believe I was in a state of unbelief. Could this be real? We aren't supposed to be here. Kevin isn't supposed to be going to work. Our fridge is empty because we weren't supposed to be here. What will we eat because I really don't have the energy to figure out what to make anyway? I have two of everything in the baby room. The dresser is full of baby boy clothes and shoes and blue blankets and blue burp rags. What if I have a girl? I'll have to pack them away knowing we won't have the child they are intended for. Maybe she'll change her mind before she leaves the hospital. These thoughts and more just kept coming yesterday.
Kevin's aunt and uncle came for supper and believe it or not we had lasagna, french bread, green beans from the garden and tomatoes from the garden. It was mostly from scratch so the empty fridge didn't matter. We had so much left over for lunch today. Today, our pastor's wife brought us two watermelons, peaches and a bag of apples. These were things one of my children was asking for (fruit). My mom brought us two big bags of green beans. We just finished a great meal mostly from our garden with grilled hamb. and hot dogs. God is good!
Today was a harder day than yesterday. I think it all hit like a ton of bricks this morning and I had a hard time getting out of bed. We ate breakfast about 10 a.m. and then I went back to bed for awhile. I was completely exhausted. The afternoon we spent some time doing school. The kids are eager to start:) I can hardly believe that. Anyone else have kids getting up early on their own to start school when I haven't even said we have to start yet? Again, God is good!
And I have had so much encouragement from all who read this and from our church family and friends and family. The comments left on here were really wonderful and encouraging and a huge blessing. Thank you! Again, God is good!
courageous
5 comments:
yes, God is good.
you are VERY blessed by children that want to learn. as a child I wanted to go to school, however it was only so I could see people. not an A student except in band and art. I'm sure the kids helped to keep you from being in bed all day.
my heart is still very heavy for your family (as well as the family in GA). What a good example of when we show someone Jesus' love, and they reject it. Oh how their life would be soooo much different if they would except The gift. This young girl has no idea the gift she has just passed to receive.
Hugs, Steph. I understand the being too exhausted to want to get out of bed. Allow yourself time to rest. You are emotionally, physically, and mentally drained. We'll keep praying.
My heart goes out to your family in this time. God has a plan for you and your family and only He knows it, and that is very hard sometimes to just let go and let God. My prayers are with you.
Steph, I am thinking about you and praying for you as you wait in the dark and wonder why the Lord did things the way He did. Its so hard. karen
Praying for you and your family!
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