Keepin' On

Well, it has been a week since we found we were not to keep this baby. It has been an up and down week. I tend to compare everything to previous experiences and this didn't follow last time so it left me wondering if this was normal or if something else was OK. I called the doctor's office a couple of times just to make sure it was on the right track. I am not passing everything as quickly as I did before. Just when I feel better it will turn around and I'll be hot and cold and cramping. I did go in for a hormone count on Friday and it was low but not zero yet which is what they are looking for. I made an ultrasound appointment for tomorrow but do not plan to go now that I know it can take two or more weeks to pass everything. I am sometimes so tired it takes me by surprise. I just lay down or sit. Thankfully my girls are old enough to help with meals and the many other things to do. I have a hard time sitting when there are things to do. I canned some pints of sauerkraut yesterday. It had been sitting on the counter for 4 weeks now and it smelled bad to most people in the family. My mom cut up all my tomatoes that I had ready and now I'll make tomato soup this week. The hard part is done. I just got a call for apples. I am going to let the girls do that job. I'll just guide them. They'll probably have to take a couple days off of school.

I spent one night searching the net for other agencies that handle adoptions from Ethiopia and found three. I also have a friend getting me info on a place through Liberia, the first country we looked at. I got the application for Children's Hope International. This week I am going to contact Immigration Services and work out the poverty line problem we have. I am not going to apply anywhere until we know that we won't get stopped somewhere along the line with Immigration Services. This will certainly let us know if we can continue on with an international adoption.

Thank you for the many prayers and calls and cards. I sure feel so good and loved. God has been good to me and all of us in all of this. This week went pretty well. Wednesday the kids had their first night of AWANA and that was the hardest part of the week. Whenever anyone asked about how I was I felt like crying so I tried "nicely" to ignore everyone:) and let them know I couldn't talk about it yet, not when I was trying to get six kids registered and in the right places. I am also not feeling well today so I stayed home with Caleb. We had a nice time making raspberry muffins and playing Life, Caleb's favorite game. Last time I miscarried the weeks after the physical stuff passed were the hardest. That is when I started thinking about things too much. I am trying to find something to occupy my mind when I fall into that. So continued prayers for this time will be appreciated. Thank you.

I thank my God in all my remembrance of you, always offering prayer with joy in my every prayer for you all, in view of your participation in the gospel from the first day until now. Philippians 1:3-5